I wrote this when I was very early in recovery. Addiction sucks.
gray
never the
gleaming
brightness of white
or the sleepy
certainty of black
only the fog
of gray
just
gray
down
go slowly
down the spiral
no thrilling
straight exhilarating plunge
not the progress of up
slow and constant
just
down
numb
avoid pain
dull ache or agony
body or mind
it doesn’t matter
recognize no pleasure
or grasp
too desparate
to feel
don’t feel at all
just
numb
twilight
an eternity of
not night
the [...]
Filed under: Recovery on August 3rd, 2007 | Add Comment! »
People who go through successful 12 Step programs for drug and alcohol addiction usually complete a moral inventory, which details all the terrible things they’ve done throughout their life and then figure out how to make amends to the people they wronged. As I go through the process of changing my nutritional habits, I [...]
Filed under: Food, Recovery on April 1st, 2007 | Add Comment! »
Up until I met the woman who eventually became my wife, I always thought I ate pretty healthy. I ate three square meals a day, and tried to cover all the basic food groups. My salads even earned the “oohs” and “aaahs” of my coworkers at lunchtime. And, despite addiction, high blood [...]
Filed under: Food, Recovery on March 22nd, 2007 | Add Comment! »
Rocker IGGY POP insists it’s much harder to relax now he is clean and sober - because he used to rely on smoking a joint to feel good.
The 59-year-old has adopted a healthy lifestyle, and claims the clean-living way of life is much harder to maintain.
He tells Spin magazine, “To feel good when [...]
Filed under: Recovery on February 21st, 2007 | 1 Comment »
As someone who suffers from an addiction and works a Twelve Step program, I’ve notice that when Ive veered off the path of the steps, it’s usually because I fail to see how much better my life is as a result of clean living. I think sometimes that I have everything under control and [...]
Filed under: Recovery on December 11th, 2006 | Add Comment! »
