GranolaBox

I wrote this when I was very early in recovery. Addiction sucks.

gray
never the
gleaming
brightness of white
or the sleepy
certainty of black
only the fog
of gray
just
gray

down
go slowly
down the spiral
no thrilling
straight exhilarating plunge
not the progress of up
slow and constant
just
down

numb
avoid pain
dull ache or agony
body or mind
it doesn’t matter
recognize no pleasure
or grasp
too desparate
to feel
don’t feel at all
just
numb

twilight
an eternity of
not night
the new day
redemption
never dawns
just
twilight

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Filed under: Recovery on August 3rd, 2007